Unsure.

On a night like this, my mind tends to play a little more tricks than usual. I'm not sure of many things. I'm not sure if this is what I really want or it's all temporary. I'm not sure what will happen or could have happened. I'm not sure how it works or if it will ever work. Sometimes, I just wish my mind doesn't exhaust me this much. I wish this feeling can be wiped off instead of lingering around without a stop button.

There are so many things that I wish I could say but it's not safe no matter here or elsewhere. I don't expect people looking into my inner emotions, in fact, I hope nobody knows what my thoughts are. It's tiring to keep things to myself, to lock them down deep inside me. But, what if once they are exposed to the damned truth, what would they think about me? Would they be really judgmental or supportive?

For all that I know now, there is no turning back. There shall be no regrets to whatever I've decided on. I can only choose to move forward, lead the current life as how it should be. I need to stop being fickle-minded. I need to learn that some things don't go the way you wish they did. I need to learn how to manage my emotions and to know what is right for me.

Now all that I pray is that someday, it will all pay off.