To You.

I bloody hell swear that the teacher has issues. It's not like I don't want to help you, the office has mentioned that you should be the one booking the lab. Don't you understand simple English? Screw you for telling the whole class that I did not do what you want when you just told me it's okay with a fucking ugly smile before the class started.

Whaddafark?

Don't be such a two-faced cow please. With the ugly face of yours, it's lucky that you still have a job in that line though I can see that you're not a successful one. Then again, screw you. You have no respect for the others, I doubt that you actually respect yourself much too.

And don't correct people's English when yours suck big time. You cannot even pronounce "charisma" right. What rights do you have to correct someone's way of pronouncing "such". And thank you for repeating everything that the lecturer had said weeks before. At least now I know I don't have to go for lecture and still know what's going on in the lecture hall. -_-

You're a tutor, FYI. You're supposed to give us questions. Not being a lecturer repeating everything in the notes. I really don't see a reason why the college needs teachers like you. Sadly, I will need to see you for one whole freaking semester.




Today's a bad day. A fucking bad one. Goodnight except for you. Hope you get nightmares. Pfft.

Je ne suis pas contente.

Am back again to update about things that are going on. Done my student ID. Went for the library thingamajig. Oh, and I'm one of the 30 finalists for Orientation Odyssey Night 2009 under the Campaign category and also one of the 6 representatives for School of Social Science and Humanities in O.O. Night. :D

But that means, I will be busy with college and the competition as well. Then again, because the boyfriend and the friends came to support me during the interviews, I shall still try my best to win. :)

Gonna be a huge change in college life. Gotten the timetable today. It's sucky. ); Basically having classes from Mondays - Saturdays wtf. And it's only an hour for Saturday. -_____-

Our timetables hardly have any breaks together and I feel so miserable now. I don't even have an extra day off.

Guess I should think at the brighter side. *sighs*

Right now, I just want to drown myself with alcohol so that my brain cells can malfunction and I won't need to think and consider and think again about the future.

No, seriously. Life can be so horrible and aimless. Maybe it's just me.

I can see people having their future planned so nicely and as for mine, it's still under maintenance.

Time to shut myself out from the world for a while. Goodnight.

For Once.

Stop asking me the same question when you know I won't answer you.
Stop acting like you care when the fact is, you just want to see how badly I'd done it.
Stop bothering me when I said I'm busy.
Stop trying to tell me things that I don't need to know.

Fuck you.

I'm dead serious. Just stop trying to test my patience. It has a low limit. No kidding. And I'm in no fucking mood to fuck around with you assholes [ read : people who don't usually talk to me come asking me shits ].

If you're in any way offended, take the offence. Thank you.

Screw You.

Certain people seem to have a problem with me being with someone else. Call me sensitive or whatever but seriously, does it concern you? Are you just freaking jealous that I have somebody and you have nobody? Well, if that's the case, then you should start realising why you do not have anyone right now.

Either you're bitchy or you're a wannabe. Whichever you are, I still hate you for what you've done to many people including me. FYI, you have a lot of haters. Not just me. Stop pretending we're friends when we know clearly, we're NOT friends anymore. You have your own life and I have mine so please stop intruding with MY life when it's none of your business.

Stop acting innocent in front of us, bitch.

Have a good day.

It's Not Ours Anymore.

The date that used to be ours became a history now. Nothing but a whole lot of tears and unwanted memories. Maybe I've been telling everyone including myself that you're a screwed up past I'd never want to happen to me ever again. Maybe I ended up convincing myself that I've let go after so long. Again, I lied.

I have moved on but I hate the fact that you now belong to another girl. I'm selfish like that. I hate you so much right now it makes me feel sick.

That explains why I did not want to see you, ever. Even when you wanted to talk to me, I chose to avoid you just 'cause I don't want any flashbacks. And this is how much I hate you. I hate your existence and sometimes, I hope to get a memory loss just to erase you from my life.

I may be strong after all the shits but the cut was too deep. To heal it needs not just time, but someone who's willing to mend the broken heart.

I don't want just another past.

To Streamyx.

Fuck you for ruining my mood since last week till today.



I HOPE YOU'RE BANKCRUPT NOW.









Super mengdulankan sekarang la. TOLONG PERGI MAMPUS.

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Hatred, Part 1.

I am feeling mixed up. I don't know how to start this post. I want to pour everything out but something keeps stopping me from doing so. I want to tell how much I hate 2009 now. I thought 2009 should be a better year compared to the previous one. Why is it not better? Everything seems to be worse than it already is now. Why can't I have a peaceful year just for once? This is so not fucking funny. Can life be any bitchier than it already is now? Because I'm fucking tired of life.

Maybe someday when the pace can slow down a little just for me to catch up with everything, I will then be ready to face those ups and downs again. But now, I want to stop giving a single damn about anything at all. I hate you 2009. I hope you're never here.


Messed up life, just leave me alone and I will fucking appreciate you.

It is frustrating when you're being accused of something you did not do. Worse still, it's when the accusations sounded so real that you kept thinking back to check on yourself if you've really done so.


But no, I shall stick to my own point of view and I am not going to tolerate bullshits.

When Shits Come.

The SIX unlucky events today.

1. My fucking phone is spoilt, like really spoilt. I can't even switch it on now. SCREW YOU SE.

2. I could hardly breathe properly in the afternoon and that had distracted me from my studies.

3. I got sounded for nothing and yes, I'm very pissed till this moment.

4. I'm still having the headache I had since yesterday afternoon.

5. Whatever I've studied about History is now forgotten due to the unfortunate events.

6. SPM in 6 days and I'm so not ready for it.


I need to scream, kickbox and scream again.

It Started And Ended.

So October's over in another 45 minutes time and time flies so friggin' fast that SPM is in.. 11 days. Quote Zhee Ann, " All we know is that when Sunday comes, no more counting down with double digits. "

Now.. what? SPM is near, am not ready mentally, studies have been shitty, I saw the best gladiator platforms today but black's out of stock and worst of all.. my stupid phone is spoilt again. The "back" button is not working this time.

I hate W850i.. and its style. Officially.

Goodbye.

To Mr. Idiot.

Thanks for putting me into this misery, black hole, frustration or whatever it is. I have better things to be taken care of but I still allocated time just to have things arranged. You were the one who wanted it but now I don't see you working hard for it. I guess this is what people get when they care too much.

And to the reason why I'm using vulgarity, uncontrollable temper and anger right now..

Screw you for everything.

Have I told you lately?

The BM papers were good, so were the English ones. Maths was.. Let's just say, there'll be a lot of silly mistakes in paper 1. Yours truly has screwed the paper by making very unnecessary mistakes, thus losing marks for it. Paper 2 was okay though. But tomorrow all the way till Thursday somehow seems hellish to me.

Add Maths 1 and 2 on tomorrow and hurrah, I did not read a single thing. Good. I shall just have my first 8E. Or maybe a 9G this time. I've been very weird. I usually get stress before the exam week. But this time, I get stress on that day itself. Not the days or even weeks before.

I feel very much screwed up. Nothing seems right. Nothing. The only thing that makes me feel a little less lifeless would be the interview this Sunday.




Just pray hard I don't start vomitting my intestines out and do well enough to achieve what I have wanted for so long.

Once Upon A Time.

When people asked me what I think about the country last time, I would reply it with a slight dissatisfaction due to racism issues but because the weather is not that bad, the food is wonderful and i love the people around me. And so, the hatred fades away easily.

But now, if someone were to ask me what do I think about it, I can only do these [note : plural ].

*2 middle fingers*

*spits saliva*

*heaves a sigh*

*migrateeeeee*

You. Disappoint. Me. Even. More. Than. Before.

Bodoweep, Najis and Amat Eastmaill should be gone from the country.

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Jangan sue aku kerana apa yang aku kata hanyalah sekadar fikiranku. Bukan hal kau untuk mencandakan apa yang telahku tulis. Ini hak aku. Hak kebebasan bersuara. Pendidikan Moral yang mengajarku hak ini. Mahu salahkan orang, salahkanlah subjek ini. Salahkan perbuatan keji engkau. Salahkan otak kau yang tidak reti berfungsi. Kau kalah semua dan tidak ingin mengaku kekalahan itu. Sekarang, ramai yang benci engkau kerana segala yang telah berlaku. Inilah balasan. Laknat.

blogger.com has finally finished pissing me off. Thank you so much. :) but you wanna know what's next on the piss-py-off list?

MY SISTER WHO'S CURRENTLY SLEEPING SOUNDLY ON THE COSY BED HAS LOCKED ME OUT OF MY ROOM. I AM GOING TO HAVE TO SLEEP ON THE SOFA TONIGHT WITH NO BED, BOLSTER AND THE BLANKET!

.. and I just realised it 15 minutes ago. T________T

Oh yes, and to anonymous,

PLEASE STOP ASKING ME THE SAME QUESTION WHEN I'VE ANSWERED YOU A MILLION TIMES AND DON'T YOU EVER DARE TO ASK ME THE SAME QUESTION TWICE IN LESS THAN 5 MINUTES TIME AGAIN.

Your cooperation is kindly appreciated. Thank you.

I can't open a few blogs including mine. It seems that..

" Internet Explorer cannot open the Internet site *add URL here*. "

" Operation aborted. "

Whaddafark?!



I am very upset with blogger.com today. Goodbye.

Hy-mo.

A new word created by me/ Nethiya/ Shin Ee. I don't remember who actually came up with all those funny names. Anyhoos, that pretty much explains my emotions these days. Oh wait, before we proceed, Hy-mo means hyper + emo. I'm always hyper in the morning and then after recess, i would be emo but once in a while back to my hyper mode again.

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It must be the yucky canteen food with bad services from them. Like, hello? We're your customers. We don't pay to be mistreated as though we should pay to see your ugly sour faces. Bitch. -____-

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Or maybe its just me. With all the stress to cope with and all the shits happening on me. And sometimes, parents are a pain in the butt. I am just so annoyed that all I wanted to do is to get out of all these but noooo, I am stopped from doing so. Because I hate being forced to do something, I might end up not doing anything at all.

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Then again, it could be the teachers. I am not mentioning any names here because there might be spies that would print this post out and leak it to The Powderful People. Anyhoos, this is my blog, my life. Therefore, I don't need any unnecessary comments or leakage to TPP. I HAVE MY OWN RIGHTS TO SAY WHAT I WANT TO. This is a free country. Kebebasan Bersuara. Haven't heard of it? Open the Moral textbook then. :)

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Tomorrow's Today's going to be my Australian Maths Competition. No calculators allowed. I am already mentally prepared to leave the paper empty after paying RM 30 for it. And I'm not sorry if this post has offended anyone because I am only ranting randomly. Therefore..




Why so serious? (:

Petrol is Costly.

Because the politicians are pretty much brainless, the petrol in Malaysia will be rising a total of RM 0.80 per litre. Because the petrol price is rising in another few minutes time, everyone's been going to the stations to have their tanks filled. Because of this, it's been causing traffic jams and people who are stuck in the roads may result in those at home who are in need of transportation problem being late for their own businesses.

Because my dad was one of the traffic jam victims, I was still at home when it's 5 minutes to 8. Because my tuition class was supposed to be at 8, I reached only 15 minutes later. Because I was late, I missed learning about Physics for 15 minutes. Because of me missing that whole 15 minutes, I have the chance to fail Physics. Because I have the chance to fail Physics, my SPM results might be affected.

Because every minute is equivalent to money, you can do the math for the amount of money I've lost in 15 minutes time. Because when money is wasted, I might not have the chance to go to college to further my studies. Because I have the chance to not being able to go for college, I might need to be part of the DBKL road sweepers crew for the rest of my life.


So tell me, is it costly?

Angst.

I wish everytime I start blogging, I can have something to blog about but currently, with the unstable emotions I have, I doubt it. I don't even have pictures to be posted up here and therefore, I shall once again, flood this blog with words. Yes, nothing but words.

I've been stoning at home since the day[read : tuesday] I got back from Johor and have rarely stepped out of the house besides going out for dinner. It's so miserable and pathetic that I feel like doing bungee jump from my balcony here. Please forgive me and my insane idea because like I've said, I am having unstable emotions right now.

By the way, when we were in Johor, the form 5 girls have come to the conclusion that I'm having bipolar disorder. Maybe they were right about me having that disorder wtf. *O* I'm very much pissed at certain people now that I might just throw tantrums at them anytime.

Speaking of people, I'm getting annoyed by a small amount of idiots too. Please leave me alone before I talk to you bluntly and when I do, you won't like it. Trust me, you'll hate me for it. Therefore, I'm dropping hints already. Be a little smarter than usual please.

I must admit, many are getting on my nerves these days. Or maybe it's just me. Gah. Who freaking who? I don't give a damn right now.


Leave me alone, assholes.

Guilt.

I'm trying hard to remind myself that the diagnostics is coming soon so please pardon me for mentioning about it a little too much in this post yeah? Thank you. If you do not want to feel stressed out reading this post, I suggest you to stop reading right here because I'm going to rant a lot of things and I don't think you would want to read about it. :)

Haven't been studying for the diagnostics when it's just a week away. Will update about SPCA soon after the update on the drama competition. Another event coming up tomorrow which is the VICLU's One Day Camp. I might just consider posting all the pictures up and not talk much about it because for one, I'm really exhausted. Secondly, I need to buck up in my studies soon or it'll be too late.

Yeah, I always say the same ol' thing but ended up doing almost nothing at all. But hey, who told you I did not try? I am indeed, trying very VERY hard to focus on my studies already. Yes, very hard. Gah. I need to take a break but no, EXAMS JUST A WEEK AWAY! 3 weeks of papers and then, I'm off to Tanjung Puteri Golf Resort with the UBS members. :D Then again, exams are before that.

I've got another 5 Tugasan Harian and 3 Kerja Amal to go. To the fourth and fifth formers, I'm pretty sure you know what is it about. To the others, all of those are some crap to be hypocrites. Kerja Amal, isn't it supposed to be a voluntary work instead of being forced to do it and write bullshit namely report? I don't get it at all. You gotta be hypocrites to get an A for your Moral thigamajig. In fact, I'm impressed that even the teachers suggest us to fake all those photos and then fake your report as well. Jokers, they are. -__-

By the way, is it that wrong to ask about a certain something? Hello, you're not the only one who involved in it. Everyone else did. So don't be such a bitch just because you participated more than others did. If you think you're a level above the others, let me remind you that you're not. You're just another student like everyone else is. Either way, I still don't see the responsible you because it's never there. So stop being such an ass and learn how to response politely.

I can be annoyed real easily so please do not try and test my limits because I don't have as much patience as the others have. One of the teachers too is getting on my nerves. Her attitude makes me feel like kicking her butt, honestly. I mean, who doesn't? If they actually know who I meant. Oh well, I am off to bed as I'm dozing off even while typing. Salute me. *yawns*