It Started And Ended.

So October's over in another 45 minutes time and time flies so friggin' fast that SPM is in.. 11 days. Quote Zhee Ann, " All we know is that when Sunday comes, no more counting down with double digits. "

Now.. what? SPM is near, am not ready mentally, studies have been shitty, I saw the best gladiator platforms today but black's out of stock and worst of all.. my stupid phone is spoilt again. The "back" button is not working this time.

I hate W850i.. and its style. Officially.

Goodbye.

27th.

To those who have been missing for quite sometime, come back!

To Mr. Idiot.

Thanks for putting me into this misery, black hole, frustration or whatever it is. I have better things to be taken care of but I still allocated time just to have things arranged. You were the one who wanted it but now I don't see you working hard for it. I guess this is what people get when they care too much.

And to the reason why I'm using vulgarity, uncontrollable temper and anger right now..

Screw you for everything.

I've Gone This Far.

Everyone is aware that SPM is nearing and that doesn't exclude me. Unfortunately, I just feel so helpless when I'm not motivated to study. During my PMR days, I would be studying my head off a month and a half ago. It definitely paid off and I'm glad I studied hard for it.

But now, I can't seem to study on my own even if it's just 17 days away. Instead, I'm struggling so hard even to just take a book and read. I believe that I've changed for the worse now. I've stopped caring for anything, even for myself. I've lost my aggressiveness. The competitive me is gone.

I want back my ego. I want to prove to the whole wide world that even if I'm on the losing track, I still can lose with pride. I want those who have looked down on me to change their perceptions. I want to prove to everyone that I can succeed and excel even though I've been slacking this much.

It's not easy, but I want to make it happen and I know that if I stop procrastinating for the next 17 days, things will pay off just like my UPSR and PMR days. Meanwhile, updates will be lesser from now on though it's not on hiatus. Goodbye.

Simplicity.

Walked to Jusco with Hazel, Zewei and Yao Bang yesterday and took the taxi halfway. Sorry lah. I was really tired. x] Not for any celebration but for group study. As for Hazel and Yao Bang, they had to meet their friends there. Zewei and I went to Black Canyon and ordered our food and beverages while waiting for CD, PYan and Kah Mun.

CD came after us and he started complaining about high class places. In fact, ZW complained too. Pfft. Kononnya McD people. xD Eh, BC is not high class okay? :) So while waiting for the food, Hazel came to give me the cake she bought for me. Thanks again because I didn't expect it, seriously. =3

the cake which got eaten mainly by ZW.

They knew I wasn't in a good mood though I knew I was supposed to be and started making jokes. High-classed fries, snatching portions of cakes and things like that. Thanks guys for all the humour. :) PYan and Kah Mun came by the time we finished our food and were about to start our study session. In the end, study session was delayed. So we decided to buy credit. ZW, CD and I went to get the credits.

Saw Hazel with her friends when we were on the way back to BC. Hello again. :D Started our study session finally at around 2ish but I was really unproductive. Decided to teach ZW English again. And then to the ladies with the girls.

Kah Mun ; My close friend in kindy whom I've not met for so long till recently. :D

CPYs. Need I say more? ;)

PESS, SBU, PESS.

Studied till 5 and then headed to Kim Gary's since CD said the food at BC not suitable for him because it's too high class. Like lah KG's food is not high class. ;p So before leaving BC, took a picture with Mr "Aku-Stunned".

CD with the newly-cut hairstyle. xD

And then, to KG. Didn't eat cause I had to leave soon. While waiting for their food to arrive, camwhored again.

ZW ; my English student and Add Maths teacher. :D

And finally, a group picture as usual. x]

Went home later to get ready for the next event ; Ibox with family, uncle and aunt. (: After dinner, went there at 10.30 p.m. and started singing. My other kindergarten friend, Terence, came at 11ish just to pass me the present he, JK and Kat bought for me. Thanks for the present! ;D He ended up waiting for the cutting cake session and also singing a song before leaving. ;p

My kindergarten friend who dropped by to pass me the present. :)
The cake..The song..The blowing candle moment..The cake-cutting ceremony..and the smashing session!

Okay, not smashed like that but my mom wanted to do so. Because the cake's so pretty, it would be a waste and so, a piece was cut out and my sister did the smashing like what I did to her during her birthday. xD I smelled like the cake for the rest of the night. And I finally knew how those who have been smashed before felt. -_____-

Singing continued and then some pictures taken.

the cake smashers. :D

my uncle ; all-time singing partner.

singing Leo Ku's second medley before he went home.

Last picture before icecreamfriend go.

To those who have wished me in blogs, smses, school and phone calls like Wai Xiang ( first phone call ), Terence, Jun Kiat, Wai Kian ( first person in msn ), Kah Hoong, Zewei, Lisa, Cassidy, Pui Yan, Kah Mun, Amanda, Aimee, Charlotte, Katrina, Wai Yuen, Ying Si, Shin Ee, Nethiya ( first sms ), Hazel, Vi-Jean, Fatin, AudreyL, Yi Theng, Yen Yee, Michelle, Hsien Wei, Fiona, AudreyC, Wanqing ( last person who wished me before 12 ), Khai Keat ( first present ), Mei Li, Huey Shan and those whose names weren't mentioned because it's a really long list, thanks a million!

xoxo.

Seventeen.

It is time to let go the grudges of a sixteen-year-old teen and move on with the life of a seventeen's. No more dreaming for what I want but be thankful for what I have. I shall learn how to make my own decisions and not be a follower blindly. This will be a stepping stone to be independent, to learn how to fall and stand up no matter how much it will hurt, to learn how to laugh and tear all over again. I am grateful for those who have been there for me all the while. You know who you are. (:

Seventeen may not be the sweetest but I know it will be another impact in my life.

Unhappy.

Because behind all the smiles and laughters,

They represent the uncry tears.

Because she's not happy,

She chose to run away from the reality.

Because of the ignorance,

Her emotions are being influenced.

So tell me, what should I do when all I ever need is to break down just for once and not care for anything at all ?

I have lost my comfort zone and I made up my mind.

I have chosen to run and hide. Let them seek for me if they want and if they don't, I'm perfectly fine.

I. Give. Up. On. Everything.

Chong.

To the girl who has been in the same class with me for 3 whole years,
To the president of SBU's Librarian board 07/08..

Happy 17th!

She's been missing from school for too long. Where art thou? );

MV.

I was supposed to study but I ended up going shopping. Family day lah. ;p Reached at 4ish and bought Seventeen. How can I miss a single issue for this magazine? It's an absolute no-no and yes, I know SPM is in 21 days in half an hour's time. -____- And then, proceeded to the Digi Specialised Store which is located right next to the mag store to top up my credit. :D

Oh, while buying my top up, the below conversation happened and translated it from Cantonese to English.

Salesman : Eh, you wanna switch to postpaid line?
Me : Erm, no thanks.

Salesman : But it's cheaper wor.

Me : Uhh. It's okay.

Salesman : Serious lah. I am not lying.

Me : Umm.. nah. I'm fine with prepaid.

Salesman : Oh. But you see right. You can pay RM 50 every month and then your calling rate is cheaper. Instead of RM 0.36 per minute, it's cheaper by half. You usually talk more than sms right?

Me : *goodness, when can he stop promoting* Nope. I sms more than I call.

Salesman : Oh.. uh. Nvm. Even if you sms it's also 10 cents per sms. Cheaper leh. Seriously.

Me : I sms for 1 cent and 7 cents per sms only.

Salesman : Ohh. But how much do you reload every month?

Me : RM30. *it's a lie because I reload more than that xD*
Salesman : Never mind la. Now you can use more, RM50 per month. Very cheap and reasonable.

LUCKILY my mom came later on. He then promoted that changing my prepaid line thigamajig to her and I told her I preferred prepaid cause of privacy. I really do not want her to track down who I sms with everyday. And so, she said this to the salesman.

Mom : If I switch her line to postpaid today, her line will be barred tomorrow and I will need to pay RM50 to open the line again.

Exaggeration. -____- I am very shocked at my mom's words. I don't use the phone THAT much. Bet the salesman was zadao-ed by my mom and I. xD

Went to The Gardens later and I personally think the enlarged version of Pavilion. All in all, another place to have all the money burnt in a blink of an eye. );

@ the Gardens.... and the bridge.Touchscreen directory yo!

random things at random shops.

my dream house when I was younger. ;p

In the lift with my Ochacha Rocks drink. Weird name but good stuff. (:

Manhattan Fish Market for dinner later and after the really filling dinner, went to Toys R' Us to get my Rubiks. Parents being generous today and so, they did not say no when I wanted it. xD

Messed around with all the funny weird stuff. How I wish I was still the little girl who fancies Barbie Dolls and exams did not exist at that time. );

My ex-nickname in standard 6 from both the coolest teachers in primary : Witchie. Not because I know black magic, I just happened to have the witch's part in the Choral Speaking team. Those were the days. (:

So, the devil's horns..

or this for Halloween? ;p

I got bored with the headgears and proceeded to these.foam axe.

and also the foam mic. Not forgetting the sword-like pump. xD

Before I end this post, let me show you something..

Real or fake? ;)

Graduation '08.

Officially graduated from being fifth formers after 5 years of secondary school. Usual schedule with the speeches, Negaraku and the presentation of awards at Park Royal. After the presentation, there was a slot for James with a video about him and his speech. Ended at 11ish and finally, everyone camwhored like nobody's business! I shall leave you with the pictures now. (:

Before the ceremony..

During ceremony..

And after! ;D

If you managed to look through all these pictures, I hope you did not get sick of looking at the many faces of us. xD