Gobbledegook.

I like that word. ;D It's so nice to be blurted out. Okay, so I've been really random lately and I have no idea how this word came to my mind. But according to Huey Shan, it's some game's creature's name. Maybe I've seen that word somewhere which I don't quite remember. x]

AMC is over. The questions were tough. I don't see math. I see Add Maths in that paper. -____- Some questions required IQ too, which I must say that mine is quite low. ); Tomorrow's going to be a long day again. And there goes another week.

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I just want to leave everything behind and stare at the stars. The peace I had in Tanjung Puteri was a bliss. Nothing can beat that. I wish life's like that everyday. But we all know that reality is a bitch. And the truth hurts. I'm trying so hard to pull myself up and survive all these. I am still waiting to see myself fall and break into pieces. And when I'm broken, who would be the one to pick the pieces up and put myself back together?

How much I wish you're here with me to go through all the shits.

Hy-mo.

A new word created by me/ Nethiya/ Shin Ee. I don't remember who actually came up with all those funny names. Anyhoos, that pretty much explains my emotions these days. Oh wait, before we proceed, Hy-mo means hyper + emo. I'm always hyper in the morning and then after recess, i would be emo but once in a while back to my hyper mode again.

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It must be the yucky canteen food with bad services from them. Like, hello? We're your customers. We don't pay to be mistreated as though we should pay to see your ugly sour faces. Bitch. -____-

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Or maybe its just me. With all the stress to cope with and all the shits happening on me. And sometimes, parents are a pain in the butt. I am just so annoyed that all I wanted to do is to get out of all these but noooo, I am stopped from doing so. Because I hate being forced to do something, I might end up not doing anything at all.

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Then again, it could be the teachers. I am not mentioning any names here because there might be spies that would print this post out and leak it to The Powderful People. Anyhoos, this is my blog, my life. Therefore, I don't need any unnecessary comments or leakage to TPP. I HAVE MY OWN RIGHTS TO SAY WHAT I WANT TO. This is a free country. Kebebasan Bersuara. Haven't heard of it? Open the Moral textbook then. :)

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Tomorrow's Today's going to be my Australian Maths Competition. No calculators allowed. I am already mentally prepared to leave the paper empty after paying RM 30 for it. And I'm not sorry if this post has offended anyone because I am only ranting randomly. Therefore..




Why so serious? (:

Decisions.

I have always thought that making decisions is easy. The answer can be just a firm yes or no. But this year, everything's different. I can't seem to give an answer to all my doubts. Not a single one. It is just plain weird to see myself being unsure at all times. It sucks, really.

What's more difficult is to let go of something you've been holding on for so long. I see them happily together but behind all the smiles, there are still uncertainties among them. Then, I see myself again. We're only friends, just friends. Why bother grasping so tightly when I know I should have given up already?

Same goes to you. It's just weird that you're different when there's only us. I told you how I really felt after all those dramas we used to have. I was convinced that telling you things won't do me any harm. But then, once everything's over, we're back to our own lives. At that point of time, I would start being paranoid. The What If-s would haunt me and then, I will have a slight regret of spilling them out.

Why are there still Maybe-s and I Don't Know-s there when I've made my decision? Is it that difficult to keep my words to myself? I wish it's easy to convince myself to do what's in my mind. I really do.

I wish I wouldn't have cared so much from the start.

Because at the end of the day, nobody gets hurt but me.

Details on Prom 2008.

note : I'm doing this for the sake of Nethiya. ONLY her. Not anyone else. To others, no hard feelings aytes. :)

SBU and SJI Prom Night 2008
High Fashion Arabian Night

Venue : J.W. Marriot Hotel, Kuala Lumpur
Date : 13th December 2008
Time : 7pm onwards
Theme : High Fashion Arabian Night
Dress code : Fashion Show
Setting : Arabian Night
Bands : Meet Uncle Hussain, E.V.O.L, The Otherside Orchestra
Performers : Ruined N' Poised, SJICB Drum Line, Belly Dancing, Special Guest DJ, Special Guest EMCEE / Comedian
Ticket Price : RM100(N), RM150(VIP), RM200(VVIP)

For ticket enquiries, please contact:
Adam – 0123721262
Syaira – 0122081527
Nethiya – 0122231455
Aliff – 0122226861

Don't ask me if I'm going or not though. Reasons? Too many. Anyhoos, that's a different story so yeah, the above are the details for SBU-SJI Prom '08. Like mentioned, do contact them if you're interested whether you're from SBU/ SJI or not. It doesn't matter, really. :)

Laziness Strikes Again.

It's been so busy these few days. Or maybe, I'm just lazy to update. Catching up with school work is so tough that once in a while, I ended up giving in to all the homeworks and would rather get scoldings from teachers.

But.. you see. I'm sucha good student that teachers hardly scold me. Today's exceptional though. I was late for my EST class for 10 minutes and ended up joining the others standing behind the class. This is my very first time experiencing such thing. *O* Stood for almost half an hour and then she allowed us sit down and do our EST work. On the floor. How interesting. Reminded me of the No Desk Awareness Day. ;p

Another random fact of myself. I tend to be sleepy whenever I'm doing homeworks. Goodness, this is bad. How am I going to do my revision when trials is on 11th Sept?

I will study. I shall study. I need to study. I HAVE TO study.

Shirtliff's performing at the Big Walk tomorrow. Who's going? ;D

Celebration @ Park Royal.

Celebration held by Mei Li's mom, Jasmine's and also mine. Thank you so much. :) And so, it started at around 12 but I reached a little earlier since I was out of house by 9.30 a.m. Met up with Mei Li and her mom when I reached. Wei Lin and Kuan Yee arrived not long after we settled down. The others came at around 12. The food were good except for two desserts. Mei Li and I knew how sucky it was. Mei Li and I sat with Jasmine and Skye, our form 2 juniors. x]

Nothing much to say about it except we ate quite a lot. x] Oh yes, and I saw my BM tuition teacher there. *O* Took a number of pictures and am currently waiting for pictures from the others as well.

J.U.S.E. <3

Had good talks and laughs with the three of them and you know, it's funny that I can have a closer bond with the form 2s compared to the other forms. Weird, but thankful. :)

Everything ended at around 3.15 pm and then most of them went to Pavilion. Mei Li was off to gym and I waited for KH. He called me mafan. T_______T Oh, many thanks to KH for bringing me cross the road to TS. xD Laugh all you want but I cross the road blindly. Or I'm just afraid of those people speeding at the road though I have a feeling I would speed too when I finally gotten my license. ;p

Went there with KH and met Pui Yan and Yi Theng at MNG. After wandering for a while, decided to go Gasoline. It's my treat by the way because they supported me in Cheer 2008. Except for Pui Yan. She only gave me mental support. Pfft. ;p Wai Xiang came later and we all stayed till around 6.30 pm before going separate ways.

There were too many funny things to be listed down so I shan't bother blogging about it. All in all, it's a good Saturday with Shirtliff and them. :)

Cheer 2008.

12th and 13th July 2008, one of the memorable dates which I will not forget. It was my first, and also, my last time joining the Nationals for the cheerleading competition. Joined two weeks before the competition and it was not an easy thing to cope with the stress - everyone knew the whole routine except me. Staying back till 6.30 and even till 9 two days before the competition was tiring. That explains why I couldn't be bothered to update my blog. :)

Dealing with all the unnecessary problems, we still managed to stay as one. Though I must admit, at one point, I was this close to giving up on Friday itself because I know, there are many other people who are better than me when it comes to cheer. Anyway, I am indeed, thankful, to still be in the team and I would like to apologise to the captain, Rachel, for all the troubles. Not only that, I must salute Wei Lin for being able to catch up with the routine in less than 24 hours time. ;)

Practised from 8 till 5 pm on Friday before leaving for Palace of the Golden Horses [contributed by Rach]. Stayed there because it's nearer to BJ stadium. While waiting for our turns to have our hair curled, all of us ate mashed potatoes, coleslaws, buns and sandwiches for dinner. Rachel and my mom bought food for us. Went somewhere to practise for a while before bedtime.

before our hair being tied and curled..

..and after. x]

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Woke up at 5ish the next morning for the make-up session and reached BJ at 7 to get used to the mats. The event didn't start till it's almost 10. Shirtliff was the first team to perform and we were all nervous but at least, we managed to perform well and there were no falls. Other teams were good and the competition was tough. Many have improved and a few newcomers performed better than expected.

that's me in my jacket and my curled shiny hair. ;pmine. :)

Ate Ayamas rice for lunch. It's F.O.C. babeh! x] Cik Sri Devi can dance! But only those who were there will know how good she is in that. I've got the video but teehee, I'm not posting it up here. ;p Went back to Palace after the event and practised till 8ish. We had buns which Jasmine's mom had bought for us.

Later, the whole team went to the Carousel Cafe for dinner but because I was feeling pretty sick, ended up eating only one sandwich and gave the other to Wei Lin. She gave me some of her rice! Mind you, I need rice to survive okay. ;p Oh, and the dinner was sponsored by school. x]

The cafe. :)

Wei Lin and I with my oversized jacket.

Back to the suite later on, fell asleep on the bed while waiting for my turn to use the bathroom. Mom came to bring some of my things back and helped me curl my hair again because it was not so curly anymore. Fell asleep again after taking my bath and for the rest of the night, I didn't sleep well at all because of the stupid cough. -_____-

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Next morning, we reached at around 7.30 am and this time, we watched all the teams before it was our turn to perform. Shirtliff was last to perform by the way. Many came after break time and I saw Ying, the twins, Bev, Nethiya, Shin Ee, Seet Kin and almost the whole SS gang there! ;D Hugged the girls and my VI friends came to support me and Shirtliff! *smiles proudly* ;p Met up with them straight after our performance.

seet kin, my long lost tuition mate.

After a while, Siow Ee texted me and asked if I was in the team. I replied and we met up at the main entrance. Took pictures with Chooi Yean, Siow Ee and Pui Yan! Oh wait, this is Yong Pui Yan, NOT Chang Pui Yan. Because the one with the surname Chang didn't go, therefore, no pictures with her. Pfft. They were my Sushi King colleagues by the way. Missed them a lot, seriously. :)

Sat with Katrina and SS gang later on for a while more before going back down to gather with Shirtliff and be prepared for the results.

Katrina.

They made that for me. Those are Kasturi's notes by the way. xD Oh and they actually said, "PY, PY We Love You!" and "Shirtliff Shirtliff We Love You!" when it was almost our turn to perform. I am honestly, very, extremely, touched with that. :)

After Santwon's performance, it was time to announce the results. The results are as followed :-

Best Cheer Award ; Vibrant.
Best Showmanship ; Shirtliff.
Best Supporters ; Xavier.
Best Dressed ; Sparklez.
Best Make-Up ; Titans.
Merit Award ; Shirtliff. ( First team that had zero deduction of marks )
Teacher of the Year Award ; Miss Judy.
Fifth ; Xavier.
Fourth ; Titans.
Third ; Stunner All Boys.
Second ; Dynamitez.
Champion ; Shirtliff.

Shirtliff 08 is the FIRST team to get 3 awards after 9 years of competitions! Shirtliff is also the champions for 5 times out of 9 competitions! :)

tharrmaraj, our mascot. ;DHalf of the crowd. Shirtliff. xoxo.

my great bunch of friends. :')

p.s. To those who came and gave me support be it friends or family, I am here to say thank you for all the support you've given to me which I needed most at that point of time. To those whom I didn't get to take pictures with, I'm truly sorry but hey, you guys are just as important as the others! You know who you are. ;) Lastly, I love every single one of you. :)

Shirtliff 08.

note : Because there are too many posts in pending mode, there will be no storylines and pictures worth more than just words. (;

29th June 2008 ; Pavilion

5th July 2008 ; Sunday practice

11th July 2008 ; Palace of the Golden Horses

For Cheer 2008, it'll be in another post. ;)