Happy Merdeka.

happy 50th birthday, Malaysia. :)

going out with `G gang tmr. toodles.

it's getting worse.

As if my marks aren't bad enough, they are even lower today. I'm going to fail my physics. Period. and my EST is like, shit. the only satisfying yet unbelievable one is math. :)

banners are FINALLY done. three banners baby. ain't easy you know? painting makes me happy. ;)

tomorrow's some merdeka celebration. which i don't feel like going at all. since my besties aren't going. besides, what's there to celebrate anyway? we do that EVERY year.

last, but not least. i'm getting sick of you.

i just notice there are people who love to pick up fights even if they do not know you at all.

what a loser.

this is my life.

Am back to school since yesterday and it wasn't a very pleasant way to start the day by getting really wonderfuck marks for History which is 6 marks from failing and lack of one friggin' mark to get an A1 for English. Today, it got worsen by getting Chemistry marks - 2 marks from failing and my paper 1 for Add Maths is not even half out of 40. In fact, i feel so hollow deep inside and i started thinking of dropping school again. Although i have said that i would not give a damn about this exam as it is nothing but just another stupid assessment, i didn't know i care THAT much till i broke down in the middle of the lesson. This is because either i am having emotional breakdowns, or i did care about the exams.

Thanks Huey Shan and Hui Ning for trying to brighten me up. appreciate it loads. :)

On the other hand, don't you think it's very annoying when one's trying to discriminate? Okay, so i do realise i can be really blunt and have always been speaking before i think, but come on, discriminating in front of somebody is rude and i'm not saying that i am a Miss Goody Two Shoes who does not discriminate at all. My point is, if you wanna discriminate, don't discriminate beyond the limit. By the way, sorry if i sounded rude but that's me.

Anyhoos, Aileen, Hui Ning, Huey Shan, Mazuin, Ying Si, Charlotte and I are incharged of banners. And hell yeah, all these people really can improve one's mood without me realising it. thanks girls. love you people to bits. Erm, Hui Ning, if you're reading this, you're really a lamearse and Aileen, I know you sooo agree with me. but then again, i still love having you as a good friend of mine. ;)

` through the ups and downs, and whatever that came around,

you have always been there, to share and to care.

end of the holiday.

a week ago, it was the start of the holiday.

and now, it's already the end of the holiday. i am still in the holiday mode and ain't ready for school at all.

since it's the last day of the holiday today, went shopping with my relatives, mom and sis. the males stayed at home. x] went to Nichii Fashion City and ooohlala, i found a top which says, "Single and Ready to Mingle". okay, so i'm single but i ain't THAT ready to mingle. i still ain't over a lot of things. =\ and since i know if i don't buy it, i will regret, therefore, i did. and i bought a belt to match that top. :)

proceeded to sungei wang. walked around the whole place but can't seem to get the right handbag. i saw many "I'm Not A Plastic Bag" handbags and none looked very tempting. so if anybody comes across nice handbags in whatsoever shops, pleaseeee tell me aytes? i'm in need of a new handbag. );

two mirror pictures in a day. too tempted. ;)

that's me and my relative. :)

this is the end of the holiday. *sighs dramatically*

this holiday.

just came home from yum cha session which happens to be my dinner as well. i know it's very fattening so don't remind me.

i just realised, that i've eaten too much carbs and yet, i have not indulged a bowl of rice since 3 days back. and i miss the heavenly taste of white rice. ); i've actually indulged..
3 slices of pizzas,
4 breadstix,
a bowl of mushroom soup,
2 cups of pepsi,
3 pieces of garlic breads,
a bowl of instant noodles,
a piece of roti planta,
a piece of roti telur,
half a piece of roti kosong,
1 and a half fried ice-creams,
grilled chicken foldover
and 2 cups of milo

in 3 days time.

fuck.

i wanna bury myself under the blanket and start crying again bye.

school's going to reopen next monday, which is like in another two days time.

machauhai.

this holidays are too short although each day is a dread. maybe cause i spent my entire holiday with him last year but this year.. okay shut up.

my homeworks are still left undone and my physics project which is going to be counted in my assessment two has yet to exist. i'm superwoman. :) exam papers will be given back starting from monday omg. die you, exams. -.-

cannot complain anymore or i will turn into some very mafan woman in future although i know i'm troublesome most of the time but not good lar right to have this kinda habit so okay thanks for reading and have a great night.

trademark - only love.

2am and the rain is falling
here we are at the crossroads once again
you're telling me you're so confused
you cant make up your mind
is this meant to be?
you're asking me.

chorus:

but only love can stay,
try again or walk away
but i believe for you and me
the sun will shine one day
so i just play my part
pray you'll have a change of heart
but i can make you see it through
that's something only love can do..

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
face to face and a thousand miles apart
i've tried my best to make you see
there's hope beyond the pain
if we give enough
if we learn to trust

chorus.

i know if i could find the words
to touch you deep inside
you'll give my dreams one more chance
to let this be our last goodbye..

chorus.

okay, so it's not exactly 2 am. but, it's somewhere there okay. cis. i am still getting that funny feeling. T__T

` Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle ; love is a war ; love is a growing up.

it's already 25th August 07. i'm still wide awake, afraid to close my eyes and praying for miracles to happen. what if the moment i close them, the phone rings and i miss it? it's almost impossible, but oh well, to dreamers like me, need not say anything at all. i clearly know that life still goes on without him, but living without him somehow makes me feel incomplete.

had experienced a lot of firsts with him including my first real heartbreak. i shall now go to bed, bury myself under the blanket and cry myself to sleep.

nights everyone.

2 months in half an hour time.

currently in my relative's house. and yes, blogging is becoming part of my life. like everywhere i go also must find for sources to blog. *O*

anyway, like my title has mentioned, in half an hour's time, it will be exactly two months since the break up. i'm getting a very funny feeling and out of the blues, i cried. although for once, i don't know who am i crying for. i guess i'm really getting weaker on the inside. Everything ended as quickly as it had happened before. with a blink of an eye, 2 months gone. just like that.

ah screw, emo phases coming back every now and then. oh by the way, i had mcD for dinner and it's tht foldover thingy. kevin, wanna get jealous? x] by the way, jun kiat is currently trying to shut himself up and not speak at all. impossible. :)

` Happy Belated Sweet Sixteen

Mei Yee.

mei yee. although i do not exactly know you, yet, but i'm sure we'll meet someday. ;] hope you had an enjoyable day yesterday. :)

dear god..

please change my parents minds so i can go out with my friends tomorrow. i will be very grateful if they allow me to go.

Amen.

okay, so i'm not a christian. but blahhh. i need to get outta my house at least ONCE. this holiday is like totally disastrous. ;( i don't like it. so yeah, please pray for me that i am allowed to go out tmr aytes? thnks. x]

*add on*

outing is cancelled. sorry pui yan. :( thnks for the effort you've made. we'll make it some other time k? ;]

cravings.

i crave for McD omg. you know that chicken foldover thingy?

yeah. this one. it's so yummy. got tomatoes, lettuce, onions, the chicken meat and er the bread. but the set costs almost RM10 and it is very very unhealthy cause it's already proven and very fattening cause it's fast food. i might as well just go eat char siew rice or chicken rice or economical rice or wantan mee which costs me RM4 max.

but, i still wanna eat this Grilled Chicken Foldover. :(

free tix.

just came home from tuition not long ago. gotten news that i have received free movie tix. o.o so whatever lar kan? i checked it out. 2 movie tix to cathay cineplexes. o.o bangga like siot and then i realised that why would they give me free tix when i did nothing.

called up that guy named Richard but he wasn't in. so talked to some other guy and he said i got it because of digi yadah yadah. although i do not remember what i exactly did to get the tix, but yoohoo. free tix. xD save my money. bleh. now, who should i bring with me to watch the movie? :)

oh by the way, thanks for the movie tix digi. xD

i gotta go out soon to ikea. T__T hungry like nuts. baiii.

my late uncle's funeral procession is over. god bless him and his family members. i miss him. :'(

by the way, i know where to get a part time job. unfortunately, i have very lil info about that place and i have no idea how to tell my parents when they're still upset about my uncle's death. sighs..

and my eyes, goodness, they look really swollen. O.O i need to get cucumbers and un-swollen-ized it. x]

i need a part time job.

by the way, before i forget..

can anyone tell me where to get a part time job? financial crisis. so whoever knows where to get one, pm me aytes? thanks! ;)

finally, the exam is over.

Amen.

tomorrow's my uncle's funeral procession. aih. the fourth funeral i have attended in few years time. i guess they all left for a better place. :)

by the way, ying si, sorry yeah abt ffking you last saturday. i had to do so cause of my uncle's death. you know right? ); we'll go out some other time k?

oh, this is what we do in tuition ..

we camwhore. and talk. and laugh. and played games. but not do the work given. xD

i promise to upload the ubs pictures once i get the pictures from aileen and kok peng's camera! x]

oh, look. it's 12.33 p.m.

piano practical exam starts at 3.45 p.m.

going to reach Impiana Hotel at 3 p.m.

and i ain't ready for it. );

for the first time in these few months time, i'm feeling fucking down after one stupid fight.

two words ;

stupid me.

omg. tomorrow's my practical exam. and i have not gotten my stupid scales and appergios right. ahh, screw. and i'm stuck at my game halfway. omg. damn potong stim. T____T and i just realised, i can NEVER finish one game. perhaps, it's all about my own stupidity. sighs.

scorpios.

SCORPIO WOMAN
Oct 23 - Nov 21

A simple woman who always show what kind of a moods she is in. You can tell right way if she up set, or if she is flirting with you. She displays herself with her act much more than trying to say it for it's in her character.

A Scorpio woman has her own mysterious personality. She is confident and deep down inside she is quite proud of herself. She hates to think she is borned a woman and so limiting her with a certain social acceptable rules. She is a real woman and despite her innocent and childish looks, she has a spirit of free soul. Many men will make mistake if they think she is a good follower, they are wrong.

She thinks being a plain simple housewife is boring. She likes to have power and control over other people, but this will be only her secret, so you will only see a cute woman. Every things she does will look good, and she has all the woman's trick you can think of. She can manipulate men without they knowing it.

If you think she’s going to do everything you say because she loves you, then you will be disappointed. She could be a little tomboyish and she can understand you by just looking in your eyes. You may say sweet words which could sweep any woman, but not with the Scorpio woman. She will use her X-ray eyes reading your thought of what you just said or what you are going to say. She always smile and she can really hide her feeling.

She will constantly show you that she loves freedom. If she has freedom, she will not leave you, but will even love you more. If she wants something, she will do everything to get it. She has her own sixth sense of people and you can feel that energy feed back when you around her. She likes a man who can earn her respect, and she will also respect and feel proud of that man. A man with power over her should not threat or challenge her confident. She likes to have a good looking , strong and healthy man especially if she start to compare with her friends' boyfriends. It is a plus if he hold a degree or a good career.

She is a hot lady. She likes heavy music. She either loves or hates, there are no "fond of", or "like" for her. Love has no "may be", or "perhaps". If she is real mad, she will trash and throw things. Her wind storm can sweep all her dishes and you could get accidentally hit on your head for this matter. Be calm, it is just your grandmother favorite china for she has good quality as much as her bad tempered.

Sometimes she shows her weakness, but it won't be long. She will put herself together and back to be that hot chili again. If she loves you, it will be no matter what other people may say. Her relationship will be more important than what is right or wrong. Because of this reason, you may know some Scorpio woman become a second wife, a mistress.

She is spoilt, but she allows her love one to over power her. Dating this woman, you should not keep old love letters in your pocket or in your house. It could be a love letter 2 years ago, but never mind she will argue about this since this is a big deal for a suspicious woman. Remember she has a temper of the shrew.

If you play a cold war with her, she will treat you likewise and double it. If you stood her up once, she will stood you up 2-3 times. She is quite fair in justice, so she can accept your apologies as much as she can pretend to accept things for now and wait for a pay back revenge in the future. If you are nice to her, she will double that to you as well. A real fair woman.

She likes to make and spend money. She likes to have fame and reputations, and never let herself broke and have no name at the same time. She is too proud and will not accept status of being "Poor". She loves to have face, so if you are a manager with small salary, she will be proud more than more money being a truck driver. She hates to think and she can not stand a feeling of being a "Nobody".

If you like her, play a little hard to get. This will excite her a bit. When you go out on a date, set your schedule, but do not let her know that you have planned this for weeks. Always go to pick her up on time or better to go 5-10 minutes early.

p.s. found it in bryant's blog. pretty true. :)

life.

by the way, my uncle passed away last night. it happened all of a sudden. before this, ying si and i were suppose to go ts. but now, the plan is cancelled.

according to my parents, his heart stopped beating and was rushed to the hospital. unfortunately, he couldn't be saved. he used to play squash every tuesday and friday at the squash court that's owned by my condo. besides, he was such a healthy and active man. it all happened unexpectedly. i guess this explains why life is unpredictable. although i am not very close to him, but i will miss him.

may he rest in peace.

ubs farewell party.

this post was supposed to be up yesterday, but i couldn't upload the pictures and because of that, i decided to post about it today but blogspot still giving me problems in uploading the pictures wtf therefore pictures will be up when it's allowed to be posted.

exams officially ended at 10 a.m. and after recess, Aileen, Hui Ning, Mazuin, Geetha, Huey Shan, Melissa, Shin Ee and I helped out for the preparation. Vi-Jean, Shaun, Yung Sen, Nuri and Azizah came later around 12 p.m. the party started off at 1 p.m. by the speeches from Aileen, Ebe and Pn. Song. Certificates and souvenirs were given out after the speeches and it was time to show the movie clip done by Aileen and certain pictures which are captioned by Huey Shan, Aileen and I.

The movie, i must say, was completed on wednesday night and passed to me on thursday. I had a difficult time trying to burn that into the CDs for the form 5s, but oh well, as the superwoman, i manage to burn 20 of them, did the layout for that CD cover and sticking some words on the CD itself. but i gotta thank Aileen for printing the layouts. x]

after the movie, it's time for lunch catered by Little Caterers, if i'm not mistaken. I love the fish, fruit tart AND the cake. it's so yummy that i can go on eating them for the rest of my life. ;] during lunch, Ebe, Muru and Jeff sang the song "When You Say Nothing At All" by Ronan Keating. I must admit, that the guitarist is good although the singing was no offence, a lil bad. xD but hey, i envy their bravery man. *claps*

when it's time for the game, Aileen brought the seniors down to the guard house there, which was far enough to not let them hear the briefing on the game by me. xD Briefing was done and helped by Vi-Jean but there was a small disturbance when i was about to start the games. Seniors got a lil impatient and i apologise for that. The other guys gotta help the caterers to bring their things down to their vehicle. Back to the game, the juniors gotta dress the seniors up according to the items given and they look really erm, hot in them. ;] last minute rules were - no speaking was allowed and the seniors had to parade their costumes. but trust me, we had LOADS of fun during the game. It all ended with people dancing around and photography session for the form 4s with the form 5s.

it's a great success and Pn. Song was very proud of the new committee for doing such a good job. Credits to ..

` aileen.
` thiban.
` shin ee.
` hui ning.
` huey shan.
` melissa.
` vi-jean.
` mazuin.
` geetha.
` nuri.
` azizah.
` shaun.
` yung sen.

and last but not least..

me. x]

i can't believe what i saw last night..

it all came too soon..

and how blur can i get?

why must the people treat me like this? T__T

do you know that i have no idea that HP5 is not on screen anymore? not till yesterday night. oh fuck.

how can GSC not wait for me to watch that show before they stop screening it? they're mean people. but then, i'm going to their cinema in ts this saturday. xD too bad for me. no more HP5 in the cinema. shall buy the pirated dvd. :)

chemistry is the last paper tomorrow, and i shall have a good time playing the piano. and ubs farewell party is after school. *jumps in excitement*

i am feeling very broke. my money is flying away. i wonder how did that actually happen in such a short period of time? *sighs dramatically*

lastly, i would like to say, CHEW AILEEN is getting affected by the "self praise" sickness. thanks to me. :)

before i forget,
instead of,

- females are undeveloped males,

we say,

- males are overdeveloped females. :)

now, i really got to study bio bye.

3 papers to go and i'm done with the assessment 2. unfortunately, i have a feeling that i have already flunked 3 papers, and bio will be the next paper to fail. sigh. only a chapter, and yet, i can't seem to understand. oh yes, stupidity strikes again. :)

ubs farewell party is this friday. pray hard that i can bring my DSLR to take pictures! x] can't wait for it though.

okay, i need to watch HP5. this saturday. no matter what. alarh, relax jap never mind wan right? some more monday got practical exam. T__T gotta push myself go beyond the limits like nuts these few days.

back to bio. bye.

i'm certified busted. did not study history at all. here i go again, making another history. sighs. nights everybody.

train rides.

went home at 1.50 p.m. instead of 2.30 p.m. today as the teacher was being really kind to let us off early. ate lunch at some vegetarian restaurant. mom wanted to go s.wang and i didn't wanna go at first. but then, she started pursuading me so as a good daughter, i went with her. she said we're going to take LRT and Monorail, part of the reasons why i ended up in s.wang after school.

i had no idea how to take any of these two train rides and therefore, i tagged along to learn how to go to places with the LRT and Monorail and when i reached the stations, i felt like a jacoon because i didn't know it was THAT easy to take them. but hey, i know which trains to take now and i'm absolutely proud of myself. yes, you can now start laughing your arses off.

by the way, my mom bought us a Nintendo Wii. and the boxing game, is wonderful. don't mess with me. :) gotten another 5 new games for that new device and the R4 card for my Nintendo DS. don't ask me why i'm into electronic devices by Nintendo for i do not know the reason myself.

and i've yet to study add maths, blame the games in my DS. so much for addiction. and now, thank you very much, Chew Aileen, for sending me a message to ask me to do that CD cover design moments ago. -.-

good night peeps.

i lied, again.

whenever i think of you, tears would start to sting my eyes..
but that didn't matter for i'm used to crying because of you..
even when i said i will never cry for you anymore..
i lied to myself..

i would check my phone every now and then..

hoping to see it ring and display your name..

but when it finally rang, it's never you..

and i lied to myself..

7 a.m. this morning, i felt the vibration from my phone..

my eyes were heavy and yet, i picked it up..

2 messages and a miss call, i hoped all was from you..

but i lied to myself..

the clock strikes 11 and i wonder,

if we would ever talk to each other again,

i tried making the effort to make my move,

unfortunately, i lied to myself..

i felt the warmth of your hugs again..

as we were sitting next to each other in the cinema..

i thought it was happening right at that time..

again, i lied to myself..

i woke up feeling sick physically and mentally..

wishing that he would call just to ask how's life..

but the one who called was not him, never is..

finally, i lied to myself..

if only you're reading this..

our technology these days are getting better. from washing clothes using hands to washing machines, from sending letters to emailing and from using birds to pass messages to text messaging. therefore, i must thank all these for giving me a more convenient life.

without the phone, i would not be able to contact my friends. without the computer, i would not be able to keep a blog. without the mp3, there would be no wonderful music. without the washing machine, i would get a pair of old lady's hands few years back. see all the pros? fantastic, no? :)

BUT..

once you lose all the good stuff like the phones, computers and even washing machines, your life goes haywire. for example, i, as the lazy bump, would usually put my school shoes into the washing machine to get them cleaned and make sure my hands are free from wrinkles because i'm a vainpot wtf. unfortunately, my washing machine that has been working for my family and i for 2-3 years is now dying or maybe, just sick. it decided not to function and therefore i had to sacrifice my hands and wash 4 pairs of school shoes. i'm a superwoman but now, superwoman needs to apply a lot of lotion to make sure her hands are back to the normal condition before they start to look old and it will not be nice when her future husband holds her hand and slides the ring around her finger during their wedding. and of course, time to hibernate because she doesn't want any darker racoon eyes and bigger eyebags as concealers will soon will not be able to cover those ugly stuff so good night and sweet dreams everyone. :)

` your words are like dreams to me, but dreams can't fool me..

` the only reason why i wake up is to cry again..

` i walk down memory lane because i love running into you..

` the one who said i'll be there left..

` i love you ; but you wouldn't know..

` it takes a minute to know you, an hour to like you, a day to love you, but forever to forget you..

` memories are the only one that will not change when everything else changes..

i still like you, idiot.

i just finished eating BBQ Meltz and i am very aware that i'm fat so shut up. :) 5 days to go before the school's exams are finished. by the way, there's 2 extra primary 3 kids in my house now who are too busy playing the Playstation. kids these days. x]

on my way home, memories start coming back again. i wish i have the guts to call him and tell him how much he still means to me but i'm a chicken. screwed up life, no? it doesn't matter.

ohhhh, did i mention that my BM aural is done? i crapped the whole time and i've got 34/40. :D no grammar mistakes k? and my fluency was good. *grins* i better shut up before i start bragging about my English aural test as well.

and darn, it's a saturday. half of my precious day is gone thanks to the school. but i did have fun with all my friends today. i have wonderful friends. *smiles proudly*

okay, i am really going to shut up from bragging.

tagged #5.

tagged by pui yan again. the evil one.

Layer 1:On the outside-

Name : olivia chan pui ying ; prfsr. s. py ; ms sarcastic. x]
Birth Date : 24th Oct. 91
Current Status : single i guess.
Eye Colour : dark brown.
Hair Colour : black.

Layer 2:On the inside-

My Heritage: chinese.
My Fears: the subjects i'm studying ; insects ; stalkers. ;]
My Weaknesses : quick-tempered ; procrastinates too much.
My Perfect Pizza : hawaiian supreme.

Layer 3: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow-

My First Thoughts Waking Up : thank god for having the ability to wake up and sleep. xD
My Bed Time : i have no curfew. :)
My Most Missed Memories : the ones i had with my loved ones.

Layer 4:My Pick -

Pepsi or Coke : Coke.
McDonalds or Burger King : Mc D.
Single or Group Dates : both.
Adidas or Nike : Nike.
Tea or Nestea : neither.
Chocolate or Vanilla : chocolate.
Cappucino or coffee : both.

Layer 5:Do You..

Smoke : no.
Curse : read my blog. ;]
Take A Shower : who doesn't?
Have A crush : read my blog again. ;]
Go To School : i wish i don't have to.
Want To Get Married : oh yes. i want to marry to a rich hottie that loves me more than his money. x]
Believe In Yourself : not everytime.
Think You're A Health Freak : i can be one at times.

Layer 6:In The Past-

Drink Alcohol : yes.
Gone To The Mall : like, duh.
Been On Stage : yes.
Eaten Sushi : and again, like, duh.
Dyed Your Hair : not yet.

Layer 7:Have You Ever..

Played A Stripping Game : no.
Changed Who You Were To Fit In : no. i'm still the sarcastic me. :p

Layer 8:Are You Hoping To..

Get Married : lol, yes but not till i have found mr right.

Layer 9:In A girl

best Eye Colour : brown.
Best Hair Colour : brown.
Short or Long Hair : long.

Layer 10:What You Were Doing

A Minute Ago : copied and pasted this part to continue my tag.
An Hour Ago : on my way home from tuition.
A Month Ago : procrastinated.
A Year Ago : procrastinated too. x]

Layer 11:Finish The Sentences-

I dont want to be fat.
I have a big belly. :D
I can't wait for the exams to be over.
I lurve walking in the rain.
I LOVE ' SF ; ` G gang ; all my closest and best friends ; my family ; him.

Layer 12:Tag 5 ppl.
` huey shan.
` mei li.
` melissa.
` alsie.
` chester.

i'm getting really random.

i've watched Gubra! although i prefer Sepet, but Gubra's not bad. I'm waiting for Mukshin. thanks huey for borrowing the DVD to me. :)

i did not take my lunch this afternoon, which resulted me in gastric pain. and therefore, i'm eating now.

i am still sick and feeling blur thanks to the medicine i took last night. and to all who are sick out there, get well soon. ;]

tomorrow's a Saturday and i have exams. BM no need to study. :)

my piano practical exam is on 20th Aug. 07. and my scales & appergios are sucky.

i shall continue eating now. toodles.

to huey shan and melissa,

i apologise again for raising my voice yesterday afternoon. things got into my head and i wasn't myself. but i swear, i didn't mean to do so. and i still love you guys to bits. ;]

p.s. mei li, i jugak sayang you banyaks. =p

promises.

a promise is a promise or promises are meant to be broken?

sometimes i wonder, why do this word even exist. many would break their promises at all times. and i guess that's how people learn to grow up in a world where there is no trust.

he once promised he will never hurt me ;
he once promised he will get things settled ;
he once promised that no matter what happens in the future, we will be together ;
he once promised he will stop talking about the past ;
but, all these promises are broken.

i have many to say in here, but i do not know how to put them in words. this is not what i have expected to post it up. but i just can't keep my own feelings to myself. blogging is turning into a habit. i rant a lot and i can't help it. but not all my posts are complaints, right?

` i am still hoping for a better day to come and take all my pain away..

bad luck no. 1 ; am sick.

bad luck no. 2 ; got a long cut on my hand.

bad luck no. 3 ; exams start tomorrow & i have not done my revision.

bad luck no. 4 ; emo sessions are coming again.

.. and here i am again, feeling extremely depressed.

sorry huey shan for raising my voice at you this afternoon. didn't mean it. i really need to go for temper management courses. sighs.

exams are in 3 days time.

and i have yet to study.

if it wasn't for my BM aural today, i would have skipped school. car broke down, bad luck. so went for breakfast first before going to school. and yes, i reached school during recess. salute me. x]

fuck you for hurting me this bad. all those heartbreaking moments are coming back. you idiot. -.-

i guess i seriously need to go to the psychiatrist to get some stupid therapy so that my emotions can be controlled better. did i ever mention that my mom thinks that i have depression? like wtf. but she could be true. lol. okay, enough of being random.

` Happy Belated Sweet Sixteen Chang Pui Yan!

sorry my evil sister. didn't manage to go online yesterday. blame streamyx. anyway, hope you had a nice birthday aytes? :)

i just remembered something which is not important and yet, i still wanna blog about it.

remember the cocktail named Orgasm? imagine a 30-year-old man who looks like a perv wanting to order that drink and can't speak right.

man : excuse me miss, but i want an Orgasm please.

waitress : oh, sure. so, one Orgasm yeah? what else?

man : no wait, i want a Bloody Mary and an Orgasm.

waitress : okay. so sir, i repeat your order. one Bloody Mary and one Orgasm right?

man : yes.

i swear, i will laugh like nobody's business immediately. xD

was stoned to the max in the person's house. like omg. boredom striked. thank goodness there's someone that i can sms with. x]

i don't wanna go to school tomorrow. i wanna fall sickkkkk. you lazy bump.

am going to somebody's house later at night. and homeworks are undone. oh, life.

and again, i crave for sour sweets. they give me orgys. x]

and did i mention that my assessment 2 is this coming friday? and i haven't study. i shall consider staying back to study in the library. *coughs*

tomorrow's a monday. history, add maths, english, biology, moral.

italic words ; undone homeworks. ;(

skittles, love.

skittles. make. me. go. hyper.

i. want. skittles.

i. want. the. sour. ones.

it. is. RM1.60.

somebody. buy. me. skittles.

klcc.

went to klcc for shopping with parents. mom went to Bobbi Brown and MAC counters. and that took almost 2 hours. got a lil frustrated, and that is why, i decided to spend money on my new make up base from benefit. :) i ain't a shopaholic, i swear i'm not. and my next target is their lotion. :D oh, and we went for thai cuisine. i shall let the pictures do the talking.

the environment.the tissue. x]mom's green curry yadah yadah. dad's chicken soup.and his pineapple fried rice.my mocktail - cinderella. ;]and my tomyam soup.last but not least, my thai village fried rice with salted fish and kailan.

they did not serve kailan, but they served choytam. x] oh, and there is this cocktail called Orgasm. i almost laughed when i saw that. now, to a jacoon like me, this cocktail's name is very new to me and that is why i almost laughed. but i have self-control because i did not laugh when i almost laughed wtf.

oh, and i crave for Skittles. :(

late.

i woke up at 6.40 a.m.
i reached school at 7.32 a.m.
went recess at 10.17 a.m.
went for bio class ten minutes after it started.
went for chemistry class ten minutes after it started.
piano teacher waited for five minutes.

incidents above have proven that i'm in a late state today. x] anyway, thank god i reached school late, got detention for the first two periods. and the first two periods happened to be maths. but went in 5 minutes before it ended.

teacher : why so late?
me : detention. *grins*
teacher : detention? *was said as though she has not heard of that word before*
me : ya. *grins at friends*

nothing much happened in school after that.
oh, by the way.. the incident below happened a few minutes ago. x]

-jk [ of mundane and stupidity ] says:
i think i've enough excitement for one year dy.. heh. so now is.. er... how to say ah... reinhiliation?????

-jk [ of mundane and stupidity ] says:
i noe..

ο ι ί v ί ά ∞ just another girl. says:
LOL..

ο ι ί v ί ά ∞ just another girl. says:
more like.. neutralisation..

-jk [ of mundane and stupidity ] says:
nonono

-jk [ of mundane and stupidity ] says:
theres this word

-jk [ of mundane and stupidity ] says:
there.. the kutub animals...

-jk [ of mundane and stupidity ] says:
they

-jk [ of mundane and stupidity ] says:
sumthing

-jk [ of mundane and stupidity ] says:
during the winter

ο ι ί v ί ά ∞ just another girl. says:
hibernate?

-jk [ of mundane and stupidity ] says:
YEASSHHHH

-jk [ of mundane and stupidity ] says:
ahahahahahahahahaha

ο ι ί v ί ά ∞ just another girl. says:
LOLLLLLLLLLLLL

ο ι ί v ί ά ∞ just another girl. says:
omg

ο ι ί v ί ά ∞ just another girl. says:
so you are a kolar bear?

-jk [ of mundane and stupidity ] says:
-.-

-jk [ of mundane and stupidity ] says:
sinced when i said that

-jk [ of mundane and stupidity ] says:
=.="""

ο ι ί v ί ά ∞ just another girl. says:
oh wait

ο ι ί v ί ά ∞ just another girl. says:
not kolar bear

ο ι ί v ί ά ∞ just another girl. says:
errr

ο ι ί v ί ά ∞ just another girl. says:
are you one of the north/south pole animals then? : )

-jk [ of mundane and stupidity ] says:
...

-jk [ of mundane and stupidity ] says:
u noe

-jk [ of mundane and stupidity ] says:
i'm ur daddy

-jk [ of mundane and stupidity ] says:
if u remember

-jk [ of mundane and stupidity ] says:
=)

ο ι ί v ί ά ∞ just another girl. says:
oh yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

ο ι ί v ί ά ∞ just another girl. says:
daddyyyyyyyyyyy

ο ι ί v ί ά ∞ just another girl. says:
xD

-jk [ of mundane and stupidity ] says:
=)

-jk [ of mundane and stupidity ] says:
guai guai

-jk [ of mundane and stupidity ] says:
wahaha

lol jun kiat. at last, you admit that you're pui yan's, edwin's and my "dad". x]

i fucking give up maths homework. screw that teacher. threatening us who has yet to hand in her stupid homework. " to those who haven't hand in their work, i am going to send your names to the counselling teacher and you will have to go for detention. " like wtf.

ah screw you, mrs. old-looking-woman-with-the-glasses-dropping-to-the-tip-of-the-nose-who-speaks-broken-english-with-a-monotonous-voice-that-hypnotizes-everyone-to-lalaland.

there's not a second she'll not miss him,

there's not a minute she'll not love him,

there's not an hour she'll not think of him,

but there's not a lifetime she'll wait for him..

- yours truly.

i lied to myself that i got over him.
i lied to myself that i do not love him anymore.
i lied to myself that he's not worth every single tear.
i lied to myself that he's a jerk.
i lied to myself that without him, life will be easier.
i lied to myself that i will not let him get into my head.
i lied to myself that the memories are erased.
i lied to myself that i have given up hope on him.
i'm a big liar.

i did not realised that i still miss him, not till these few days. went to tuition, was writing an essay something related to patriotic nation. and out of the blue, he came into the picture again. if he was still there, he would have looked at my essay and i would start disturbing him and not let him look at it. and fuck my eyes were stinging again. looking back at the pictures of the both of us in my phone, they did not bring a single smile to my face. instead, my eyes started to get watery again.

i guess to people who have gone through major heartbreaks will know how much it hurts when the person you cared for seems to be shutting you outta his/her life. screw heartbreaks.

no more sweet nothings.

no more xoxos.

no more holding hands.

..no more us.

so much for emo days. *sighs dramatically*

' SF.

from strangers to normal friends.

from normal friends to classmates.

from classmates to best friends.

that is how the friendship of four different people of the same race and two different religions. today's the exact one year we've been best friends together. 1st of August, 2006. the day our friendship started officially. none of us expected that the four chipmunks would be best buddies. not till many things happened at the beginning of last year and drastic changes happened. there ain't any sleepover yet for the four of us. not even a proper outing together. but we will make all these happen this year - no matter what. even if it means sneaking out of the house. x]

lum huey shan
the weird woman that will never stop being weird no matter how hard she tries. according to her, she collects toenails. she spells weird as wierd. the treasurer of the UBS board. and she's always got an extra buck whenever money is collected. x] trust me, her weirdness can make people laugh really hard even when they are at their most frustrated mo.

kok mei li
the mad gymnast who can do wonderful stunts that will make you go awe. she is the quiet lady inside whenever there are problems and to people who do not know her, she's just another innocent kid who knows nothing. but to us ' SF, she knows A LOT. she can start doing mad stuff in a really random way and even more random than me.

melissa ting yihui
my darling and is practically our "mom". you know how moms are, don't you? they tend to take care of you, nag at you and start going all nanny-ish over you. if there are any camps that includes us, she'll be the one who has the first aid kit ready and it's obviously complete with various kinda medicines and ointments. she's the one who always bring homecooked food. x]

that's a very brief introduction of my three bestest friends. and if i ever go on talking about them, you will start yawning. ;)

there are a number of fights we had, and i remembered the worst one was mine with the three of them. it lasted long enough and i wasn't that tough to be able to handle it alone. almost ended the friendship myself. but everything came to an end just on time. sorry girls. you know i've been through too many shits this year. x] and you guys, we have yet to get a picture together this year!

pictures of us..

` Happy 1st Anniversary
' SF!

` when everything fell apart, you were there to stop me from falling..

` nothing's gonna change the fact that we're best friends for lives..

winter was here, bringing the tears,
but summer appeared and brought us together,
since then we were destined to be best of friends,
always and forever, friends till the end.

p.s. nobody steals this poem as it's written by yours truly. thank you. :)