To the one who hurt me most .

I remembered how you used to blame yourself for thinking I wouldn't be with you after I was with someone else. You were wrong. I remembered how happy I was when you told me what you felt about us. :) 

I remembered how I used to be the one you care most until everything started to change ever since you've known more and more people but lesser and lesser time for me.

I remembered how I tried compromising with all the changes in us. It was so tough. So damn tough that I almost give up most of the time when I felt I was the only one putting real effort in it.

I read back what you said to me that one day before we went to Langkawi. I read what you said about you won't be able to sacrifice so much for me. I knew where I stand all this while but I have always refused to believe what I already know. That one moment, I felt so much pain that it was unbearable.

I remembered so much of us that I wish my memory can be replaced so that I don't have to go through this. I hated you one minute but loved you for so long. I hate how we have become. We are no longer friends, we are not enemies. We have become someone who used to know each other so much, yet not at all close. Strangers.

Love is sacrifice, being loved is acceptance. I felt more of sacrifice than acceptance, really.

Thought I will hate you for what has happened. For telling me you can move on. For telling me you are getting over it. What we had was nothing at all. I saw what you posted, you said you didn't even regret making this decision. Good for you.

As much as I thought so, I know for a fact that I don't hate you as I thought I would.

You have completely broken me apart. Thank you.