I'm okay.

And so, that's what I thought I am; being okay. Unfortunately, I've coincidentally seen my senior's pictures with her boyfriend and something struck me again.

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Back then, we used to say how we want to graduate together and go UK together. Even when I first met your mom this year officially as your girlfriend, it was really nice to think that she agreed to our relationship and asked us to go UK together, to the same uni.

That happened just months ago, in April, to be exact.

Now that we're not together, the thoughts of going UK together, graduating together, working together and probably living together is no longer available. Everything has vanished. It's just like when we didn't know each other.

Yesterday we worked, I saw you yet I looked away. That feeling to me was awful as well but if I don't look away, I can't say hi to you either. After what has happened, I can't be friends with you. I was only friends with you for a year and that's it, we were together for 3 years plus. If you think you can treat me like a friend after a relationship, I really don't have much to say. All I can say is, I can't do what you can.

What has become of me was all because of you, really. If you weren't so cold-hearted to me, maybe things could have been better. Undeniably, even when I asked you again if you've moved on, I wished you didn't say you are getting over me. Deep down, I wanted us to be together again but I guess it will never happen anymore since I've asked you too many times and all you did was to disappoint me again and again.

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Friends, thank you for always being there for me throughout these tough times. I know you are all by my side when I needed all the support. I love you guys, a lot.

And you, who is now my ex, trust me, I did not stop loving you, but one day, I'm sure all of these will pass.