Sometimes I wonder, do I even fit in the bunch of friends? I didn't know I had to cope up with so much stress while trying to talk to you guys. I thought for the first time we were alright. But as time passes, things started to change. I somehow felt left out and wished I can leave immediately with the excuse I can't stay any longer.
But, there's something that stopped me ; my brains. I tried to convince myself that I was just being extra sensitive on that day. Over and over again, I said the same ol' thing to myself. But no, I was wrong. I am always the one who is clueless on what the bunch is talking about. Till today, I still feel the same. Maybe I was right after all. I don't belong to that group and someday, I may just leave.
I wonder why things are changing so quickly in just a few months time. Even the one I know longest among everyone has changed. Is it because the one you know is better than me? Well, if it is, I wish you guys luck. Usually, I am the kind of person that can never be able to keep quiet whenever I feel ignored. But for this time, I know I will just slowly drift away from the bunch of you and be as quiet as possible so that my absence won't be noticed easily.
I wish I could tell you guys how I really feel after all these but I know I have no guts to do so. Therefore, I can only blog about it..
No comments:
Post a Comment