sitting, waiting, wishing.

sitting comfortably and bloggin a.t.m. there are so many things to blog about but i will TRY make it short and brief. i swear i'm not in a relaxed state. homeworks. are. serial. killers. today, Pn. N actually asked Chang Wee Keng, our dear math ajk, for the name list to see who hasn't hand in their work. ( that includes me. x] ) She wants everything by next friday and my notebook is due this friday. oh fuck. my teachers are very hardworking these days, sighs. good for them, bad for me.

waiting for somebody to message me. and i do not know who is that somebody. oh, it's 25th July 07 today. IF i were still with my ex, today is the 20th month together. but, things just do not happen the way you want it to. and even if it does, they might lead you to more misery instead of what you wish for : happiness. looked back at some memories, they brought a smile to my face, but i know that these are the end of the both of us. and without me realising it, tears are rolling once again, when i have vowed not to cry for him anymore. maybe that's just me, the weak girl inside who seems tough enough to face every single thing in others eyes. currently listening to kenangan terindah and this reminds me of everything, and i mean, EVERYTHING.

wishing that friendship problems will end soon. it gets frustrated when everything seems to be breaking up into pieces. i have lost many people in my life, and i do not want to lose anyone anymore. holding on is not easy, and moving on is even more difficult. i don't wanna elaborate much on this, but i'm pretty sure the only people who knows about this are the ones who are experiencing the same thing in school these few days. remember the song by vitamin C? remember the initial of our group's name? remember what does it mean? if little things like that are going to cost us to lose this bond, i don't think it worths all the trouble to build it before this.

` as we go on, we remember, all the times we, had together..
and as our lives change, come whatever, we will still be, friends forever..

` don't cry for it has passed, smile because it has happened..