Almost Ending.

Three more weeks till my semester ends in Sheffield and I guess that's it. That's the end of my study life. Another month to travel and then I'm going to be back in Malaysia. The feeling is really complicated. I'm so used to the life here. No homesick, peaceful life by staying alone, having a room to myself and I'm actually dreading to go home. Don't get me wrong, I do enjoy the company of my family, friends and him, but having only three months here is really not enough for me to explore who I am and what I want to strive in life.

It's alright. I have a feeling that I will be back here someday. At least, this is what I've been telling myself so far. Aside from having lots of fun here, I guess that's where problems come in too especially with the relationship. It's so hard for me to believe in LDRs cause I never really trust in them but I'm willing to try. Yet, there are times when we really argued and it makes me feel like crap. I'm not even as positive about it as I used to be already thanks to all the minor arguments.

I'm still trying and I hope I can endure it long enough till I'm back, maybe that's when everything will be OK again.

Just maybe.

OMGWTF2000.

I am super ganjeong (panic) now. My first assignment is due next Tuesday and I haven't start on anything at all. It's a 2,000 word essay. How am I going to ever manage it homaigawd. And I've been procrastinating for weeks WTF. I need to stop being such a procrastinator, always regretting that I never start my work early and end up still do last minute work. Oh god, why? :(

So I'm left with 4 days to do my assignment since.. I'm going to shop the whole day tomorrow at Cheshire Oaks. And I still got time to blog now haha really FML.

Kthanksbai.

Indescribable.

Just so you know..

I miss you.

Greetings from Sheffield!

Ahhh.. First month has gone just in a blink of an eye. I remembered the times when I sent my friends off to countries that they were headed to for their studies. And then it was my turn. I waited 4 years for this opportunity. The usual goodbyes and hugs have always been a soft spot in me. So yea, no surprises. I teared.

It was hard to say goodbyes to the people you love. That feeling is never good. But it happens all the time. And no matter how difficult it was, I am glad that I've come to this lovely place. Trust me, if I am given a choice to take MBA now, I wouldn't go back to my own country, especially with the shooting high crime rate and being classified as the 6th most dangerous city in the world. What a joke.

But it's too bad things will never go the way you want it to be. I was so determined with doing Masters, got my visa done after all the trouble that I've gone through, and then, just 4 days before my flight, I've made my final decision. 

I'm dropping the idea of doing Masters.

It was tough to think that my dream of staying here a little longer, studying with students from other countries as well as to try and get a job opportunity in the UK may need to be put on hold or will never happen again. I got everything I've needed for my Masters and after getting more advices, I made up my mind. And like I've said, things will never go the way you want it to be. :) 

Still, I'm enjoying my time here even if it's just for a short period. Liverpool, here I come this week! 

Till then!

Four Sundays to Go.

In a blink of an eye, it's my turn to fly away from Malaysia soon. After all these years, all the hard work will be paid off. The only thing I worry most now is my Masters application. What if something goes wrong and I can't do my Masters this year? So much to worry, yet, I can't do anything till my results are out.

And by the time I stop worrying is when I am already there, hopefully. A lot of things are still going in my mind. How I wish they can all just stop here. There are just too many people that are hard for me to let go but for a better future, this is the price to pay. Maybe I shouldn't have made this decision from the start but it's all too late now.

All I can do is to hope for the best. Sigh. Till then.