Gobbledegook.

I like that word. ;D It's so nice to be blurted out. Okay, so I've been really random lately and I have no idea how this word came to my mind. But according to Huey Shan, it's some game's creature's name. Maybe I've seen that word somewhere which I don't quite remember. x]

AMC is over. The questions were tough. I don't see math. I see Add Maths in that paper. -____- Some questions required IQ too, which I must say that mine is quite low. ); Tomorrow's going to be a long day again. And there goes another week.

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I just want to leave everything behind and stare at the stars. The peace I had in Tanjung Puteri was a bliss. Nothing can beat that. I wish life's like that everyday. But we all know that reality is a bitch. And the truth hurts. I'm trying so hard to pull myself up and survive all these. I am still waiting to see myself fall and break into pieces. And when I'm broken, who would be the one to pick the pieces up and put myself back together?

How much I wish you're here with me to go through all the shits.

Hy-mo.

A new word created by me/ Nethiya/ Shin Ee. I don't remember who actually came up with all those funny names. Anyhoos, that pretty much explains my emotions these days. Oh wait, before we proceed, Hy-mo means hyper + emo. I'm always hyper in the morning and then after recess, i would be emo but once in a while back to my hyper mode again.

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It must be the yucky canteen food with bad services from them. Like, hello? We're your customers. We don't pay to be mistreated as though we should pay to see your ugly sour faces. Bitch. -____-

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Or maybe its just me. With all the stress to cope with and all the shits happening on me. And sometimes, parents are a pain in the butt. I am just so annoyed that all I wanted to do is to get out of all these but noooo, I am stopped from doing so. Because I hate being forced to do something, I might end up not doing anything at all.

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Then again, it could be the teachers. I am not mentioning any names here because there might be spies that would print this post out and leak it to The Powderful People. Anyhoos, this is my blog, my life. Therefore, I don't need any unnecessary comments or leakage to TPP. I HAVE MY OWN RIGHTS TO SAY WHAT I WANT TO. This is a free country. Kebebasan Bersuara. Haven't heard of it? Open the Moral textbook then. :)

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Tomorrow's Today's going to be my Australian Maths Competition. No calculators allowed. I am already mentally prepared to leave the paper empty after paying RM 30 for it. And I'm not sorry if this post has offended anyone because I am only ranting randomly. Therefore..




Why so serious? (:

Decisions.

I have always thought that making decisions is easy. The answer can be just a firm yes or no. But this year, everything's different. I can't seem to give an answer to all my doubts. Not a single one. It is just plain weird to see myself being unsure at all times. It sucks, really.

What's more difficult is to let go of something you've been holding on for so long. I see them happily together but behind all the smiles, there are still uncertainties among them. Then, I see myself again. We're only friends, just friends. Why bother grasping so tightly when I know I should have given up already?

Same goes to you. It's just weird that you're different when there's only us. I told you how I really felt after all those dramas we used to have. I was convinced that telling you things won't do me any harm. But then, once everything's over, we're back to our own lives. At that point of time, I would start being paranoid. The What If-s would haunt me and then, I will have a slight regret of spilling them out.

Why are there still Maybe-s and I Don't Know-s there when I've made my decision? Is it that difficult to keep my words to myself? I wish it's easy to convince myself to do what's in my mind. I really do.

I wish I wouldn't have cared so much from the start.

Because at the end of the day, nobody gets hurt but me.

Details on Prom 2008.

note : I'm doing this for the sake of Nethiya. ONLY her. Not anyone else. To others, no hard feelings aytes. :)

SBU and SJI Prom Night 2008
High Fashion Arabian Night

Venue : J.W. Marriot Hotel, Kuala Lumpur
Date : 13th December 2008
Time : 7pm onwards
Theme : High Fashion Arabian Night
Dress code : Fashion Show
Setting : Arabian Night
Bands : Meet Uncle Hussain, E.V.O.L, The Otherside Orchestra
Performers : Ruined N' Poised, SJICB Drum Line, Belly Dancing, Special Guest DJ, Special Guest EMCEE / Comedian
Ticket Price : RM100(N), RM150(VIP), RM200(VVIP)

For ticket enquiries, please contact:
Adam – 0123721262
Syaira – 0122081527
Nethiya – 0122231455
Aliff – 0122226861

Don't ask me if I'm going or not though. Reasons? Too many. Anyhoos, that's a different story so yeah, the above are the details for SBU-SJI Prom '08. Like mentioned, do contact them if you're interested whether you're from SBU/ SJI or not. It doesn't matter, really. :)

Laziness Strikes Again.

It's been so busy these few days. Or maybe, I'm just lazy to update. Catching up with school work is so tough that once in a while, I ended up giving in to all the homeworks and would rather get scoldings from teachers.

But.. you see. I'm sucha good student that teachers hardly scold me. Today's exceptional though. I was late for my EST class for 10 minutes and ended up joining the others standing behind the class. This is my very first time experiencing such thing. *O* Stood for almost half an hour and then she allowed us sit down and do our EST work. On the floor. How interesting. Reminded me of the No Desk Awareness Day. ;p

Another random fact of myself. I tend to be sleepy whenever I'm doing homeworks. Goodness, this is bad. How am I going to do my revision when trials is on 11th Sept?

I will study. I shall study. I need to study. I HAVE TO study.

Shirtliff's performing at the Big Walk tomorrow. Who's going? ;D