Angst.

I wish everytime I start blogging, I can have something to blog about but currently, with the unstable emotions I have, I doubt it. I don't even have pictures to be posted up here and therefore, I shall once again, flood this blog with words. Yes, nothing but words.

I've been stoning at home since the day[read : tuesday] I got back from Johor and have rarely stepped out of the house besides going out for dinner. It's so miserable and pathetic that I feel like doing bungee jump from my balcony here. Please forgive me and my insane idea because like I've said, I am having unstable emotions right now.

By the way, when we were in Johor, the form 5 girls have come to the conclusion that I'm having bipolar disorder. Maybe they were right about me having that disorder wtf. *O* I'm very much pissed at certain people now that I might just throw tantrums at them anytime.

Speaking of people, I'm getting annoyed by a small amount of idiots too. Please leave me alone before I talk to you bluntly and when I do, you won't like it. Trust me, you'll hate me for it. Therefore, I'm dropping hints already. Be a little smarter than usual please.

I must admit, many are getting on my nerves these days. Or maybe it's just me. Gah. Who freaking who? I don't give a damn right now.


Leave me alone, assholes.

Yong and Bobo.

To the most retarded guy friend whom I've known since form 1, the one whom I addressed him as WGLD..

..And to the red shirt innocent looking girl next to me whom I've known for quite a while too..

Happy 17th!

I hope they'll enjoy their celebrations. (:

Three Zero Zero.

When I finally had the courage, I was being let down. So, tell me. How to build the confidence once again? It's never easy for me to do something extraordinary like that because I don't put my ego down easily. The female mindset whereby some things shouldn't be done by a girl herself. That's what I think and that's where my ego lies.

After the debate between me, myself and I, thought that I should give it a try. In fact, I did but luck didn't side me. Or maybe I was just saying the wrong things at the wrong time. Not like I have not tried messing things up but whatever I do these days, I just screwed them up. Sometimes, I would really want to just sit back, cross my arms and not bother about anything at all.

And then, I would end up giving in to myself and do what I'm supposed to. I tried, I really did. Maybe it was all a mistake from the start. I shouldn't have done anything at all. I should have just ignored what I wanted to do even after all the struggling. I should have chickened out so that I wasn't let down.

I don't blame anyone for this. I was warned indirectly and yet, I still tried, foolishly hoping I could change the situation. Silly, silly me. The pang in the heart is still there though 2 hours is gone. Leave, I beg you.

For now, I will not give myself a second chance. Not till I'm fully recovered. I'm sorry to have a post like this though it's the 300th post since last year..

...But I know I'm gonna be okay.

Pack and Leave.

When it was exam season, I wish it's holiday. Now holiday's here, I hope it doesn't end. Sigh.

Am leaving to Johor tomorrow morning. I hate packing because I'm worried that I missed out something. And, I hate unpacking because I'm worried that I left something behind wtf. Yeah, I'm a paranoia but this is me. Then again, it excites me pretty much whenever I'm going to farfarawayfromhome with friends. ;D

I hope the bowling alley will be done with their renovation by that time because one of the main reasons I'm going there is to bowl all I want. ); Otherwise, I shall just play squash pfft. Or at least, learn how to cycle. Do not laugh. I don't know how to cycle lah can? I will need to bring some CDs to listen to and some DVDs to watch at night. ;D And the list goes on and on teehee. I hope this time's trip will be good. :)


Teach me how to pack light, somebody.

It's done, for now.

Diagnostics are finally over. Yes, no more papers for the next 2 weeks. Holidays baby! ;D Apparently my parents are trying to ground me but uhh, I sorta 'ignored' what they told me the other day. I don't want to be so lifeless facing books ONLY during this coming holidays though I know exams are a few months away.. 25 weeks perhaps? );

On a brighter note, when SPM's over, I'm going to start planning all the things I need to do. I just hope none of my friends and I will get NS because if we all do, the plans will go cuckoo and then poof, everyone will be moving separately and god knows where will they be. -.-"

Then again, I hope things will try to go my way because this is my last high school year. *sighs dramatically* For now, I shall sit on the comfy sofa and start watching AOD again. (:



Trip's in 3 days time. ;D