I look so round in my dress. I am so screwed up. Prom's tonight and i'm still wide awake. I wish the fairy godmother will transform me into a thinner person. I hope i will wake up with a thinner figure. Goodbye. T.T

Green-Eyed.

It's been quite some time since I've blogged and honestly, I wanted to resume my blogging with a happier post but I can't betray my feelings right now. Once again, I'm awake thinking what's going on as things happened too fast. Did you once use me for the sake of something else or was it real at that time? I want the answers but seems like day by day, the answer you gave me was just nothing but another string of words so that I can be manipulated.

I don't mind being used by people, really. I can just shut up, do what I'm told to and move on with my life. Those words seem so real and I fell for it. Yet, everything seems to be fading at the same time too. I fucking mind when you are the one who took me for granted. I just hate it so much when it's you who chuck me aside when you don't need me. And it's because I fucking care.

I must admit that I am too used to your presence and once it's gone, it just doesn't feel right. Maybe I'm finally clear with what I want but it seems to be a little too late. Why does it feel like I'm about to lose you any second from now on? Is it just me or things are changing for real - again?

I just wish you will realise what do I really feel. It hurts too much, seriously.

Back.

Back to KL at 11.40 last night. Was superbly tired but ended up sleeping at 3 this morning and woke up at 10.30 am. I feel so.. zombie-fied. I'm going to be leaving again tomorrow morning and won't be back till 9th. Genting with the ladies! ;D To those who will be going to Pangkor, enjoy yourselves too. (:

Anyhoos, I'm not happy again. Stupid W850i really is a pain in the butt. It's back at square one where 5 buttons are spoilt. -.-" I am just going to go for part time job and start saving up to buy a new phone. PFFFT.

On another note..

To the brainy girl with dimples..

Happy Belated 17th!

And to the busy smarty-pants who hardly turns up for the outings before this..

Happy 17th!

A year's going to be gone again. );

Leaving.

Leaving to Penang in another few hours time, approximately 6.30 in the morning. Quote Audrey - seperti pergi sekolah. ); But this time, I won't be in my uniform while tying my hair with eyes partially closed. I'm going to travel for a few hours and reach Vistana Hotel or whatever the name is and continue sleeping.

Okay, I was just kidding about continuing my sleep. I suddenly miss all my friends even if it's just going there for 3 days. Can't imagine what exactly will happen if I go overseas to further my studies in the future. Worse still, the chances of seeing my high school friends will be way lesser.

And I still don't like the idea of leaving. I think I shall go to my bed and continue feeling emo later. Goodbye.


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Oh, before I end this post..

To my kindergarten mate who talks a lot and always ask me to "Fai Gou Jeong Dai."..

Happy 17th!

Ignorant.

It's already December in a blink of an eye and it's just plain weird when I don't feel like it's holiday. Usually, I would be saying " It's holiday! " to myself every now and then. But this year, holiday to me is like, " So what? ". Or maybe it's just cause I've not gone to a single trip yet. I am still waiting for the day my holiday mode is switched on. Guess I'm just weird like that.

On another note, I'm going to be at Penang from 3rd till 5th December - family trip. I think I'm going to like the idea of swimming again. :) Hopefully I still remember how to swim since I've not been into the pool for.. years.

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Anyhoos, I don't like the feeling of being ignored. I don't like the feeling of being used even more. So to anonymous, please stop using me. Just because I choose to keep quiet, that doesn't mean I'm fine. You've done it once and I don't think I would like to experience it ever again. My patience has its limits. You should know me better than anyone else so don't make me confront you right in your face when you go beyond the limitations.