Oh God.. Why?

Been really down lately. Not sure if I'm really down or really feel like it's all starting to drift apart. Maybe it's just me who become so speechless nowadays. I have so many things to express, yet I don't know how to. I have so many things to say but I don't know how to start. I have so many things that I wish to do but wondering when will that time come.

It's been going on for weeks already. Looks like I am not at the top again. This sucks, especially when I've been through it a million times. Maybe I need that space to calm down, to get away from everything for once.

Really sick and tired of it.