Everyone is aware that SPM is nearing and that doesn't exclude me. Unfortunately, I just feel so helpless when I'm not motivated to study. During my PMR days, I would be studying my head off a month and a half ago. It definitely paid off and I'm glad I studied hard for it.
But now, I can't seem to study on my own even if it's just 17 days away. Instead, I'm struggling so hard even to just take a book and read. I believe that I've changed for the worse now. I've stopped caring for anything, even for myself. I've lost my aggressiveness. The competitive me is gone.
I want back my ego. I want to prove to the whole wide world that even if I'm on the losing track, I still can lose with pride. I want those who have looked down on me to change their perceptions. I want to prove to everyone that I can succeed and excel even though I've been slacking this much.
It's not easy, but I want to make it happen and I know that if I stop procrastinating for the next 17 days, things will pay off just like my UPSR and PMR days. Meanwhile, updates will be lesser from now on though it's not on hiatus. Goodbye.
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