I should be studying.

But I'm not. Yes, I am aware that trials are coming soon. Less than a month's time. I hardly opened any book at all. Good job py, good job. You are on your way to failing the whole trials thing. And then, you will start regretting and scolding yourself on why didn't you study yadah yadah.

Then again, I think I'm starting to be so stressed up that I'm going to go nuts. No, I'm serious. I seem to get bad headaches everytime I hear noises these days and my mood will be so screwed up that I can just fire at anyone anytime. I can't even bear with whatever noises that I hear for more than 5 minutes. This. Is. Bad. I swear.

As if all that is not bad enough, I don't have enough sleep at all. It's the third consecutive night that I haven't been exactly resting my mind. Usually, no matter how tired I am, when I rest, I just fall deeply into my sleep. Now, I'm so tired. I want to sleep but the moment I closed my eyes, I know that the mind is still thinking a million things. It's not allowing me to rest at all. I am just asking for peaceful nights, and this is what I get in return.

I am still in a screwed up situation. The stupid dilemma. The stupid mixed up feelings. On top of all those, I'm still the stupid me. Good gracious, being single can mean more trouble than being in a relationship at times.

I shall walk to my bed and close my eyes again. Just pray hard that I can get enough rest for tonight. I am exhausted, I really am.