tell me the truth, not lie.

There are times when I wonder who I am to you now. I keep trying to figure out the answer but it has never worked. Well, maybe once. But that's it. It is not easy being sandwiched in between two people. I know it's the same to you, but you're the only one who can make a decision, not me nor her.

I ain't as brave as her. I have no guts to tell you how I truly feel. I wish I have half her bravery and that would be enough. You leave me with unwanted thoughts, thoughts that I never want to have. It's as though ever since that day, you've stopped talking to me. I am not asking for anything, but I hope you would tell me what you feel.

I don't wanna suffer in this kinda situation. I want to cry badly, but not a tear can fall from my eyes these days. It's been months since I've last cried and I don't know when I can be that weak girl I used to again. Being tough is tiring, really. Sometimes, I really hope I can depend on you. But I do know, depending on myself is more realistic.

And now, I did not fall for your retarded acts, your silly faces or even your thoughtful ideas. I just fall for you, plainly you and I've no idea why. Thanks for putting me into misery and doubts. Dont leave me hanging here with no directions for I do not know how long I can stand in this situation.

I hope you read this.

I screwed my English paper. dammit.