The water which danced rhythmically captured my attention and i couldn't stop looking at it. But my mind started playing tricks again. Playing old memories at the back of it. This time, it's not just about him, it's the important people in my life. I started wondering in my own world, thinking about ' SF, family,` G gang, friends and well.. him. What will I exactly be without all these people?
I've lost many people in only a few years time. Realising that there are times when I do not appreciate their effort at all. I do regret not showing them how much I love them, bad at expressing myself, even worse when I deny everything. Am still trying to fix myself. After all, teenage life is all about searching your true self right? ;)
One thing, I do not trust people easily anymore. You can call me paranoid or whatsoever that suits me. Unfortunately, I can't let myself go on believing anyone at all just 'cause i'm getting extremely fragile and sensitive. I don't even believe in myself, what's more you? :)
We all do dream big, don't we? But let me tell you something, good dreams don't usually happen while the bad ones, I have nothing left to say. Did I ever tell you that I was so afraid of getting ONE single break up from my ex and when I dreamt about this, I woke up from that nightmare and dare not sleep at all. Tears started dominating my eyes immediately and when I wanted to hear something comforting from him, I really thought that there won't be any break up, not at all. It still happened though.
and that's why, I'm back at square one.
I regretted too many things. and even one very minor thing made me feel as though i've lost something important. and one of those minor regrets? i didn't manage to take the picture of the dancing water. I suppose that's what the future are for, mending mistakes to avoid more disappointment. And someday, I'll be back to the same ol' place, to capture that very moment. ;)
enjoy your day, cause i did. :)
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