i lied, again.

whenever i think of you, tears would start to sting my eyes..
but that didn't matter for i'm used to crying because of you..
even when i said i will never cry for you anymore..
i lied to myself..

i would check my phone every now and then..

hoping to see it ring and display your name..

but when it finally rang, it's never you..

and i lied to myself..

7 a.m. this morning, i felt the vibration from my phone..

my eyes were heavy and yet, i picked it up..

2 messages and a miss call, i hoped all was from you..

but i lied to myself..

the clock strikes 11 and i wonder,

if we would ever talk to each other again,

i tried making the effort to make my move,

unfortunately, i lied to myself..

i felt the warmth of your hugs again..

as we were sitting next to each other in the cinema..

i thought it was happening right at that time..

again, i lied to myself..

i woke up feeling sick physically and mentally..

wishing that he would call just to ask how's life..

but the one who called was not him, never is..

finally, i lied to myself..

if only you're reading this..