when happiness finally take over my life, there goes emo phase ruining it again. screw life.

first emo phase :
` why does it hurt even when i said, i'm so over him?
` does he still remember those memories?
` we're not even friends anymore, but i still bother about him.
` why are all those bitches being so flirtatious?

second emo phase :
` i see you with your CG, and it hurts.
` you keep telling me you hate her, yet, why do i still see the both of you together?
` you said that we need to talk face to face, what am i going to tell you?
` when you're near with your CG, jealousy takes over, when you're just alone, i wish i can talk to you, when you're not around, i fucking miss you.

third emo phase :
` family issues.
` stressful school life.
` confused about almost everything.

so, what's wrong with my complicated life over here? EVERYTHING. I wish things like this will come to an end, but why is everything starting all over again when i thought it's the end of it. I always tell people to be positive, and yet, i'm drowning in my own misery. I can fake a smile, a laugh but not my own feelings. I tried telling myself that i ain't letting anything to get into my way to enjoy life. Unfortunately, i fail miserably. I wish i am allowed to get outta school life immediately. another ridiculously emo post.

` she painted a smile and learned how to pretend.

` nobody told her it was going to hurt this much.

*add on*

` Happy Sweet Sixteen, Ying Si!