seeing him online and wanting to say hi, unfortunately, i failed for the umpteenth time. why am i such a failure in so many things? the only thing i have not failed is being emo. i even fail to sleep early, fail to wake up early, fail to eat dinner at the right time, fail to go up to him and tell him sorry, fail my exams and yadah yadah.

it seems so difficult looking him under the online status and not talk to him. seriously, i wonder if he ever thinks the same as me : coming up to me to apologise. maybe things will not go so bad if i had been keeping my cool down. but then again, if only he had think before he had spoken to me. Quote from ying si ; words can cut where knives can't.

`all i can say is, i love you.